I see apps, filters, programs etc. that apply movement and additional elements to photos and they are beginning to look so real that one day we won’t know which is the illusion. If we continue down the path of such a reality, we will be following the lies that are breadcrumbs tempting us to hold onto the falsity. We’ve gone so far down that rabbit hole that we barely see the light some days. I have been aware of this illusory nature of “reality” for many years but it’s so much stronger now. Our holographic existence is clear. I have been in SecondLife, played computer RPG’s, see the computer graphics in movies and it all shouts to me that none of this is real. It’s time to get to the truth and it’s not what we’ve built, it’s our ability to build it, dismantle it, alter it, build it again differently.  I am so aware that life is all just one vast green screen and we’re making one hell of a movie.

I am disappointed in myself for buying so heavily into the construct. I was a good child, a good student, and a good employee. I learned consummately how to live in the illusion. I excel at seeing patterns and I apply logic with surgical skill. I have relied on reason and rule for so much of my life. Always my existence has been a balancing act of the rule follower and the esoteric outsider. I know the truth and I dream of reaching it but how can I tap into my higher self and trust the power of creation when I am locked into the game that was set up for me? All this time trying to control with the wrong tools. The proper tool is surrender but I sometimes wonder if that’s even in my arsenal. If I can surrender, love will take care of the rest. I will stop resisting the Divine and be able to raise my vibration to meet myself.

I sometimes feel as if I wanted to truly test myself this time around and that I came here with a set of conditions that were designed to make my rise more difficult. I see so many in the younger generations that are tapping right in and it’s more natural for them. I understand that the way was paved by those that came before and that all efforts keep leveling us up. I know I came here to make the way easier for others. I know that my challenges are completely worth it. What I do is necessary for us all and as I dig deep and breathe and begin to let everything flow like water, it gets easier for me as well. I need to continue to tear down the concrete walls and breach the dam. I am not here for personal reward, I am here for collective gain but I still feel left behind on occasion because I hear about downloads and light codes and I’m still standing on the sidelines, waiting to be chosen for the team. I have to remember that everything I do has value, every step on my chosen path is getting us there. What I achieve is what I came here to achieve. My work is not the same as someone else’s and it’s time to stop comparing myself to others. I am exactly where I need to be and when I remove the filters, I see the star of hope that I am and resolve, again, to be of service to the collective. How I choose to address the challenges is the way through.